My story is one of a lifelong love for the stage, an unexpected career shift, and a journey that led me to embrace my true passion. It all started with a deep-seated desire to perform that I had nurtured since childhood.
As a little girl, I was captivated by the world of entertainment. The glittering lights, the electrifying energy of the crowd, and the enchanting allure of the stage were irresistible to me. It was as if there was a magnetic force pulling me towards the spotlight, and I knew that someday I had to be part of that world.
At age of 19 I had a regular boring job and I faced a challenge: the financial aspect of it. The compensation for it fell short of my ambitions. I yearned for more, both in terms of financial possibilities and self-fulfillment. It was at this juncture that I made a pivotal decision. I left a stable job and relationship (because my ex-boyfriend didn't support my passion), and I walked through the doors of my first strip club.
My first encounter with the world of striptease was both exciting and intimidating. The thought of dancing in front of a live audience thrilled me, but it also brought waves of nervousness. When I stood on that small, colorful stage for the first time, a rush of emotions overwhelmed me. However, as the music began to play, something magical happened. My body moved effortlessly to the rhythm, and I felt a connection with the audience that I had never experienced before. In that moment, I discovered my natural talent and realized that this was my calling.
Despite my newfound passion for striptease, the journey was not without its challenges. The biggest surprise was the realization that the job involved more than just dancing; it required building connections with clients. This unexpected aspect of the profession, which I had not anticipated, was a significant learning curve. I had entered the world of striptease to dance, not to coax another drink from clients.
My journey took me to various cities across the world. From the vibrant streets of Moscow to the exotic landscapes of Asia, the enchanting allure of Israel, and the cosmopolitan charm of Europe, I embraced the diversity of cultures and experiences. Each place left an indelible mark on my soul, but it was Tel Aviv, Israel, that held a special place in my heart. There, amidst the ceaseless music and endless parties, I encountered remarkable individuals. One person, in particular, stood out as a philosopher. His words resonated with me deeply and continue to inspire me: "You need this, and it's up to you to pursue it. Show the universe how important it is to you and do something!"
The journey eventually led me to Portugal, a country I now call home. From the moment I set foot in Porto, I felt a profound connection. Despite the autumn rains, there was something enchanting about the place. The warmth and acceptance of the people I met and worked with were remarkable.
As my journey continued, I dabbled in other pursuits, attempting to explore more socially conventional avenues such as painting, psychology, and astrology. While these interests provided valuable insights, none of them made me feel as alive and fulfilled as when I was dancing.
Overcoming the fear of judgment and insecurity was a significant turning point. I realized that I should embrace my true self and stop being afraid to share my story. It was then that I decided to create my website and establish my brand. What is most heartening now is the way people respond when they learn about my profession. It is a pleasant surprise to see the genuine curiosity and respect in the eyes of people from all walks of life. There's something incredibly empowering about casually mentioning your career while wearing sporty attire, only to witness the spark of curiosity and interest in the eyes of your conversation partner, regardless of their gender.
My mission is to promote self-acceptance, to help individuals embrace their own unique beauty, and to inspire them to be unapologetically themselves. I want people to love themselves and their passions without fear of judgment. My journey in the world of striptease has been a journey of self-discovery and empowerment, and it continues to evolve with each performance. This is the story of how I found my calling, and how I've chosen to share my passion and my true self with the world.
Photos in this article was made by @anapanarina